Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Lately, though, I've seen this timing thing work out in my life in so many small ways as God reveals and gifts things to me exactly when I need it. These little things that happen are so easily overlooked.
Example: Recently I started having a feeling of anxiety in my gut. I've had this feeling in the past, but it's been a while. It's almost like a stomachache without actual pain. But, it's definitely emotional pain. I thought most of that emotional distress was behind me and I began to wonder why this feeling had returned? Instead of trying to figure it out for myself, I took this concern to God in prayer. I asked God to tell me why this particular emotional pain was happening again. I didn't get my answer that day. However, the next day I began to feel it again about the same time of day. Once again I asked God to tell me why I was experiencing this anxiety. I was ready to deal with this. God immediately brought to mind those other times when I experienced this pain. In each occurrance, the pain was associated with two particular emotions: Fear of the Unknown and Loss of Control. Ah-Ha! That's exactly what has been going on. I had an answer. God's timing was just right.
You see, God had asked me to give up control over a particular area of my life. Until then I had not realized how much I had been trying to control things myself. I surrendered control to Him. So, the side-effect of surrendering control is facing that fear of the unknown and loss of control. Now that I know what's going on, God and I will deal with it. Oh, and that anxious feeling in my gut went away as soon as I realized the truth. And if it does come back, I'll know that I'm trying to take over again.
A much smaller example of this gift of God's timing are the encouraging messages from friends just when I need to hear from someone, a sweet hug, or a really good belly-laugh just when I need it. He always knows what I need, even when I don't know. God is good and his timing is perfect!